Am I weird?

And I'm excited....not in a bad way

It's strange because most people react to this sort of situation with fear and anxiety and maybe even some sadness, but I'm completely ok. Have I been expecting this all my life, I wonder...

It's this close and I actually want it. I know how it'll hurt - not just me, but everyone that cares about me. But it's almost like I knew this is what was meant to happen... It is definitely more desirable than everything that has happened so far.