darshana_d30: u don't realise that u have so much time to find that one guy who was made for u and that all the other guys in the way r just an introduction to the guy ur looking for....
crazyautumn7: i know ....yes love
darshana_d30: u see when u have crushes it's because u like something about them...
darshana_d30: at the end of it all u;ll be prepared to settle down when u find the right guy....
crazyautumn7: i agree coz u like something 'bout them
darshana_d30: and that guy will have a lil bit of every guy u liked....and that will make him special to u in more ways than u can ever imagine....
crazyautumn7: he doesn't exist anymore for me...dead and buried...
darshana_d30: not true
darshana_d30: he's still a crush...
crazyautumn7: he just a living creature
darshana_d30: but he's not the one for life...remember....
crazyautumn7: he?s not any more?..: yaa that?s something i know from the beginning...he;s not the one for me
darshana_d30: he's just a part of ur life
darshana_d30: perhaps a very important one...
darshana_d30: cos every guy u like teaches u something about urself

darshana_d30: u slowly will discover urself and realise what u want ....
darshana_d30: do u get it now?
crazyautumn7: hmm....hope so
darshana_d30: hope so?
crazyautumn7: hey was that how it was for u???
darshana_d30: i thought what i said was clear enuf!

darshana_d30: nope
darshana_d30: but that's what i've come to realise...
crazyautumn7: yes love i agree with u fully
crazyautumn7: okay.....
darshana_d30: i'd like my guy to have a lil bit of everything that i liked previously....
crazyautumn7: okay.......
darshana_d30: i'd like him to be intelligent....(harshraj)
crazyautumn7: and
darshana_d30: romantic...(ivor)
crazyautumn7: and.......
darshana_d30: and sensitive and understanding....(mario)
crazyautumn7: wow!! thats great!!!

darshana_d30: as of now that's how the list goes....
darshana_d30: it'll get bigger and bigger with every guy.....
crazyautumn7: hmm..
darshana_d30: and at the end of it i'm sure i'll find someone who's as close to perfect as anyone can get
crazyautumn7: wow...i hope so tooo..u will find him?.. i just know it
darshana_d30: see, in that way i'm learning about myself...
darshana_d30: learning what qualities i like....
darshana_d30: it's the same with everyone....
darshana_d30: r u clear now?
crazyautumn7: yaa...much more than before
darshana_d30: good
darshana_d30: so even though it's normal to feel miserable during a crush....
darshana_d30: it all comes to some good ultimately u see?
crazyautumn7: hmm...
darshana_d30: it's perfectly normal to feel depressed when the guy doesn't like u...it's all just a part of life.......
crazyautumn7: very welll...then let it be that way...if thats how it's gotta be
crazyautumn7: yaa true
darshana_d30: but as long as u remember that u'll be fine even if u r depressed....
darshana_d30: exactly
crazyautumn7: hmm...
darshana_d30: u can act rude .....or do whatever u want....
darshana_d30: but u can't help that u like him right?
darshana_d30: so just like him and maybe it'll work out for the both of u
crazyautumn7: hmmm yaa
darshana_d30: and ur list will begin....
crazyautumn7: nope,,,
darshana_d30: every relationship will definitely be special........
crazyautumn7: hahah i guess so....
crazyautumn7: in it's own way
darshana_d30: but as they say..u must learn from ur mistakes....u must also learn from ur relationships....
darshana_d30: why do u like me?
crazyautumn7: don't know.....it's something i can't explain....
darshana_d30: no there is something specific....u'll know later i guess.....
crazyautumn7: but if theres anyone i truly like then thats u....(other than family...not relative)
darshana_d30: well when u do, u wud not like ur man to be like that...
darshana_d30: or maybe u wud....that totally depends on u......
darshana_d30: thank u
crazyautumn7: hey tell me tell me....y do u think i like u
crazyautumn7: tell me...i wanna know
darshana_d30: what i'm trying to point out here is that we r friends and that is a relationship.....when u find out what caused our relationship, u'll realise that ur list has probably already started....
darshana_d30: maybe it's cos ur comfortable with me....
darshana_d30: wudn't u like that with ur man?
crazyautumn7: yup....
crazyautumn7: thats true
darshana_d30: see....there goes....
crazyautumn7: hey darshana....it's not just comfort u know.....it's something else....maybe when i figure it out i'll tell u
darshana_d30: but again, i'm irritable and get bugged with u easily....and i have some habits that u may not like or even hate
crazyautumn7: hate?? i am not sure of that... there?s nothing about u that i hate
crazyautumn7: u r so special .....
darshana_d30: yeah well u don't have to tell me....just make sure u get to know what u want...that's all
crazyautumn7: hmm i will
darshana_d30: will u stop getting all mushy....i'm trying to teach u an important lesson in life here...
darshana_d30: i hope ur learning something.........?
crazyautumn7: i am love i am.....
crazyautumn7: hmmm.......i am mushy most of the time.......especially these days when ur not near
darshana_d30: will u stop that!
darshana_d30: ur making me feel like crying!
crazyautumn7: okay !!!
darshana_d30: well anyways everything in life has a theory that way.......
crazyautumn7: yaaa i agree
crazyautumn7: ohh love i'm so stupid...most of the time...am i not/???
darshana_d30: people learn more things practically than they do when they r at school....
crazyautumn7: sure..we always agreed to that
darshana_d30: u may not be able to apply whatever ur learning now....maybe u don't get great marks and all that but it doesn't matter cos u have an entire lifetime ahead of u and ur not stupid....nobody is...unless they choose to be of course
crazyautumn7: hmm?
darshana_d30: and how r u to know what's important and what's not at school where ur only goal wud probably be to pass the exam and get out of college?
crazyautumn7: yeah......
darshana_d30: whereas, when ur working within a few months u'll know by heart what u shud know....
darshana_d30: and that?s what matters ultimately....
darshana_d30: most importantly what matters is the person u've become and not what u've studied.....
crazyautumn7: yup.....i agree with that whole heartedly
darshana_d30: u must always strive to be liked by others and nothing is more important than that
darshana_d30: i know i'm sounding idiotic now....but though i haven't really lived my life yet, u know i feel pretty sure about this whole theory of mine....
darshana_d30: i bet that?s what they call "nirvana" ?self satisfaction??ur happy with urself when the world is happy with u?
crazyautumn7: hmm.........but if they don't like me for what i am...it doesn't matter
darshana_d30: well they will learn to love u for who u r ultimately....
crazyautumn7: nirvana????
darshana_d30: u don't have to honest for that
darshana_d30: the truth doesn't always matter
crazyautumn7: yaaa
darshana_d30: in fact sometimes lies r better
darshana_d30: not exactly lies....but what they call" the twisted truth"
crazyautumn7: u think so......yaa maybe sometimes....but i prefer truth..most of the times atleast helps u in long run
darshana_d30: the truth doesn't have to be told just as it is if u know it'll hurt someone....it can be softened....
crazyautumn7: yaa thats there......
darshana_d30: that's what i mean....
darshana_d30: and as long as u know that ur not wrong u shudn't care about what anyone says...............follow what u think is right....cos inside everyone there's this person that wants something....and there?s also a bad side to them....
crazyautumn7: hmm........
darshana_d30: but when u listen to ur inside self with a consciously moral mind....everything will be fine....
crazyautumn7: yup........
crazyautumn7: definitely.....
darshana_d30: i must be boring u now....
darshana_d30: well u know i'm not all this deep everytime right?
crazyautumn7: hey u can never bore me...
darshana_d30: well anyways, u have suffered enuf.......go in peace....
darshana_d30: can u believe that this is what my bus. law prof. wrote at the end of his paper???go in peace. U have suffered enough!?