When will all of this change?

Right now I cannot even imagine a light at the end of the tunnel! Yet, I believe that someday it will show itself, tempting me closer and closer until I feel I'm ready to walk in the light...

And when that time comes, I am unsure of how I will feel. At this point, I would like to believe that I want to reach the end of this tunnel. But when I'm there I hope I feel the same way. I want to be prepared, I want to be ready and most of all, I want to want it...