I wanted this so badly....selfishly enough, I wanted it for me.

Nobody will ever understand. My desire may be weird, but it makes perfect sense to me and in a perfect world it would have come true. My wish would have been granted causing initial misery, but a happily ever after effect...

Well, I guess that's all it was- a fantasy...something that'll never happen. I'm destined to live a miserable long life knowing I will never have it...