well i don't start thinking of him until i am at a computer...now isn't that weird???
at home, i just need to look at the computer or the phone and i start thinking of him. i don't actually picture him of course...that wud be difficult cos i don't think i can even remember his face clearly...

hey by the way, this is good....i mean reaaaallly goooood....!!! jason is not only a flirt but a liar too! i've personally witnessed a few of his grey lies...i think he shud get married and settled down...he's growing old and stupid...can't believe i had a crush on that guy! can't blog about his personal life but am willing to gossip, so if ur interested just mail me and u'll have all the juicy details!!!lol

why does this happen? in psychology class last week, we actually discussed this situation where we are gung ho about "my dream man" when we get into a new relationship....and the minute u see someone else that attracts u, u go like "what am i doing with this loser when i can have that heavenly creature!" well it's not necessarily that bad...but maybe u'll be glad to know that's normal! well i sure am! i thought it was really sad that i cudn't stay with any of my guys (focussing esp. on my specialest one -- mario) for too long....longer than 6 months!
makes me seem really wicked! but oh well, it's natural i believe...lol...that doesn't change anything for me -- i'm still as guilty as ever...and will always be -- until i can actually get myself to commit to someone -- that's the day i'll know that i am not in fact "commitment phobic!" ; ) yoo hoo!!!
hey all u guys reading this...is this way how it is with u too? do u feel the same way? i'd like to know...do reply to me on that ok?