1. meddle not in the affairs of dragons, for thou art crunchy and taste good with ketchup!
2. live on the edge. it takes up less space...
3. why do noses run and feet smell???

ok...i'm considering putting up the personal essay i wrote on my "evil sibling" up on my blog...do any of u actually want to read it? i'll give u until saturday to lemme know....it's really long...4 pages long....so if u don't want to...then i'll email it personally to the one person i know who really does seem to want to read it!...thanx muzzafar...: )

english class again.......i'm so bored.....i've got around half an hour before class but i;m thinking maybe i shud give up on doing my essay for today! i'll submit it on monday instead! i'm just sooo lazy!!!
i hope i see him today...i guess i kinda miss him! can't believe i'm having another crush so soon! lol...it won't last. i can tell u that much for sure! lol...u think he likes me? sure seems like he does...
anyways, i'm looking forward to getting back home and listening to some good music! i don't like feeling down like today...i just hate it...maybe i'll call sahitya..but she's got her exams on now and it wudn't be right to trouble her...what will i say anyway? i don't know why i'm feeling this way....there is no particular reason as usual!...she's the only one who can understand me though...she does get on my nerves a lot, but i love her...if nothing else o god, i pray that u give every person on earth a friend like sahitya --someone they can call their very own and someone who understands them better than even themselves...

today was an ok day...i was just dying to get out of english class...it's a nice class to sit and reflect on ur life! lol...
must get home now and plan out the rest of the week just so everything goes right...
i have practice almost every day of the week! i like being busy though...i'm kinda enjoying it actually except for...

don't have anything else to say...so i'll be blogging later! k?

she saw him standing outside...it was warm and so she reasoned he didn't need a coat. he had his hands in his pocket and was looking up at the clear evening sky. he looked even more handsome in the golden light of the setting sun. he was looking intensely into the horizon and seemed to be considering something very seriously. she then saw his lips turn upward slightly as if he suddenly had a funny thought, and then he had on this mischievous look in his eyes. he looked so adorably cute. she didn't realise she had been smiling too. then suddenly without warning, he turned and looked directly at her. she was startled and was embarrassed to discover that she had been staring at him without even bothering to look inconspicuous!
he was surprised to see her there. he wondered whether he had been dreaming again. but then it had to be real. there she was. her hair slightly dishevelled...her face showing that she was very tired...but her eyes wide and bright like a little child that had been playing in the mud all day and still hadn't had enough! he recovered quickly and smiled and said, "hi! fancy seeing u here."
she hardly heard him. she was wondering if he'd caught her staring at him and whether she should apologize..."what? oh yeah. i am a friend of the bridegroom's."
"oh"
" yeah. so u know the groom too? wonder how we never met before. did u know him very well? i'm glad he's found linda! he is so happy around her...." she stopped abruptly realising she was talking too much too fast and not making any sense! (it happened everytime she got nervous!) he was looking at her with interest, his head slightly tilted to the left, probably wondering whether i'm crazy or not, she thought!
she gave an embarrassed smile and said, "excuse me while i go and freshen up. i came over directly from work. i don't want to look like this at dinner!" and she turned and disappeared into the house, with a delightful giggle. she was glad to get away from him and decided to keep her distance. she wondered why he made her feel so nervous...she was torn. she was looking forward to seeing him later in the evening. at the same time, she wanted to avoid him! she decided she wudn't worry about anything and let things go the way they chose to. she had been talking too much unnecessarily. she didn't need to defend the way she was looking. who cared if she looked like she'd been through a tornado!!!
he kept staring at the door minutes after she'd disappeared, and smiled when he thought about how she had looked. she had been looking very cute! he cudn't understand what was wrong with him. he had always been such a stickler for neatness. even the women he'd been with had to be presentable at all times -- not a hair out of place! then why was he attracted to such a mess? maybe it was best for the both of them to stay away from each other he thought....

hi,
this is a special msg. apologizing for all the typos in my blogs...u know how it is. i type and then don't have the patience to read through again. so they just stay...i hope u do understand what i am trying to say! lol...

hey don't ignore ur blog just cos u have exams??? blog atleast one line a day pleeease...i miss reading urs...u know who i'm talkign to! (clue: whew!)

sahitya -- thanx soooo much for calling! (i told u not to though!) idiot!
i'm glad aunty's fine...veeru misses her a lot too...do study well ok? i know u'll do very well in the exams...u shud...hey, i might be coming there sooner than planned. isn't that great? well i won't be staying for long, but i'll stay with u for whatever time i'm there! im sure that's fine with u!!! lol...remember out night outs on ur terrace (with all those mosquitoes!!!)...hahaha oh how i do miss them!

i'm going to start another blog soon for the specialest of u who actually care to read my blog regularly...lol ...do lemme know....i'll have this one too....but that will be abit more personal...no jokes, no general topics...just my life...
so aisi, sahitya, reshmi, etc...i'm hoping to hear from u soon!
i hope aunty's fine now sahitya? when's the surgery? i wish i was there to look after u and aunty...do take care sweetheart!
love u guys!

hi again.... didn't think i'd blog again after yesterday huh? well i've decided to try and blog as regularly as possible irrespective of complaints from avid blog readers!!!lol

...why do people like alcohol? it leaves me with a sick feeling in the stomach and makes me feel helpless (that is something i hate!!!)...i just hate feeling helpless and have decided that i shall try my best to stay away from alcohol and stay away from people who are smoking grass! lol...i had that experience once! i actually felt light headed...well the guy apologised and asked me if i'd like him to go outside and i said it was ok.(well i was just being polite...)...i can't stand smoke anyways!... i felt so high just being around him that one time, that i actually needed to hold on to another guy while getting back home! and he kept insisting that i stay back at the hotel with him!!!
yeah right! LOSER!!!
i'm not that stupid!
well getting back to the topic of alcohol addicts, i think it's the restriction that fascinates people to try it and keep drinking...well people are bound by so many things....sometimes families don't allow drinking, well even the states usually have a rule that u have to be 18 atleast...sometimes 21...(some countries don't have this rule!)...when they ultimately have the freedom to drink, they over do it mainly cos they are not allowed to do it normally...
all of u who drink, please mail me about what makes u do it ok? thanx...
(i'm planning to add a comments section to my blog where u can post ur thoughts! are u lucky or what! lol)

i am not human is it??? no! i am the insensitive, irresponsible brute! yes, and oh, i don't have feelings and i most definitely don't deserve a second chance! oh no. not me.
i hate nagging, but if i stop responding u get all senti and make me feel guilty for having been born in the first place!
being ugly is ok with me, being stupid is ok with me too...when r u going to understand that i'm u? yes, that's what i am...i have dreams too -- ambitions. yes and i do feelings! i get hurt too! maybe if u gave a damn about how i feel, i'd feel happier to consider ur feelings! ever thought about that?
i am not being ungrateful believe me! no! i love you...i even play u up to be the greatest...everyone makes mistakes! gimme a chance to prove myself atleast??? no, insteda u make me feel worse and make me feel like i have no right to live! i thought u'd understand me best. obviously, i was wrong!!! after you've alreadt been through all this, i didn't think u'd restrict me. you make me hate myself even more...u make me actually feel useless!
u know what? the only way our relationship can survive is if we're away. it only gives me more incentive to go away...i'm leaving within two months. think what u like! -- yes, i'm the leftover part of him that here just to hurt u even more! there! feel better? my only goal right now is to split up what's left of us! ok? now that i agreed to all ur accusations u must feel extremely elated?
think what u like...i love u...and i seriously think it's best for us to be separated...i'll always love u...and i know u'll love me!

UHHH....HE HASN'T MAILED ME YET!!!

well i don't start thinking of him until i am at a computer...now isn't that weird???
at home, i just need to look at the computer or the phone and i start thinking of him. i don't actually picture him of course...that wud be difficult cos i don't think i can even remember his face clearly...

hey by the way, this is good....i mean reaaaallly goooood....!!! jason is not only a flirt but a liar too! i've personally witnessed a few of his grey lies...i think he shud get married and settled down...he's growing old and stupid...can't believe i had a crush on that guy! can't blog about his personal life but am willing to gossip, so if ur interested just mail me and u'll have all the juicy details!!!lol

why does this happen? in psychology class last week, we actually discussed this situation where we are gung ho about "my dream man" when we get into a new relationship....and the minute u see someone else that attracts u, u go like "what am i doing with this loser when i can have that heavenly creature!" well it's not necessarily that bad...but maybe u'll be glad to know that's normal! well i sure am! i thought it was really sad that i cudn't stay with any of my guys (focussing esp. on my specialest one -- mario) for too long....longer than 6 months!
makes me seem really wicked! but oh well, it's natural i believe...lol...that doesn't change anything for me -- i'm still as guilty as ever...and will always be -- until i can actually get myself to commit to someone -- that's the day i'll know that i am not in fact "commitment phobic!" ; ) yoo hoo!!!
hey all u guys reading this...is this way how it is with u too? do u feel the same way? i'd like to know...do reply to me on that ok?

what i am feeling most now is "irritation." i am what u'd call an avid "wishful thinker." know what i mean? right now i'm thinking that my wish come untrue again...i don't need to have a" relationship" now...not for another 3 years???! i don't want one either, but i like the feeling of being in "crush mode"...with which u all are familiar i'm sure...that pleasant feeling which leaves u all dreamy-eyed and happy...u actually feel at peace with urself AND the world! this is insane!
why did i have to meet him at this point anyway? must have been part of god's master-plan for us humans eh? u think so? not me. uh uh...no way! this can't be it...this is something i wanted and he was just helping me...what's wrong with me?
i know he's not my type at all. i'm not his type either. i'm sure of that. then what is it that is making me have a crush on him of all people?!? i hate this!
rush darling? i expect u to mail me back immediately regarding this new development...k? u already know who it is -- i'm sure of that! well i'm guessing u knew this was how it wud turn out right? u wicked lil thing! well atleast we're both in the same predicament now. lol
we cud advice each other to get over our respective crushes and then go and have a totally new crush all over again! won't that be fun! hahaha

ok....that's it! i'm done with fiction!
suggest something interesting!!! anybody???

it was friday and there she was dressed up in a tracksuit, with her hair up in a high ponytail waiting in front of her apartment. that's where he decided to meet her. she hadn't thought of going of course. but then she realised he knew quite a lot about her and she hadn't asked him anything about him. (not even politely. well she admitted she was a lil curious!) moreover, she had argued that the exercise wud be good for her too!
well anyway, there she was...waiting...and oh, she saw him coming down the road. he was looking striking in a blue-gray sweatsuit, even better than the week before. he came up smiling and said "good morning. how are we today?"
she smiled back and said, "we're doing fine thank u. so how've u been?"
" pretty good. nothing to complain about! " and he laughed again and that made her heart stop. she had never heard a laugh that enticing." u know. i've actually been looking forward to seeing u this friday. the week seemed really slow," he continued.
"really? thats' very nice of u. so coach, what are we on this beautiful september morn?" she asked in a mocking tone.
he laughed and said, "u'll know soon enuf. patience until then."

she cud feel it in her bones...yes! there just had to be someone following her...she continued running without turning back and then suddenly jogged toward a tree to relax...she looked back then for the first time and saw him... he was far behind her but it was him. how come he had landed up on her route? did he do it on purpose? maybe he thought she was attractive too? he came closer and was smiling at her. she looked confused but smiled back politely. instead of contnuing down the path, he came right up to her and said "hi! i saw u jogging down this path and thought u needed company cos this is quite a secluded area and is known to be dangerous too." the first emotion she reacted with was -- anger -- " i can very well take care of myself thank you!" she regretted that immediately. so typical of her she thought.
nevertheless, he continued smiling and said, "i didn't think u cudn't. i just thought i'd be there as back up in case something did happen!" and then he laughed...a deep throaty laugh that she thought sounded so much like....she cut the thought off right there. she cudn't take it anymore. she cudn't keep living in the past hoping everything was fine.she had to let go and what better chance than this?
"pardon my rudeness," she said. he said," don't say that. i understand how it feels when people under estimate u. i'm sorry.how about we run back up the path and take the other one? mayeb we cud meet up everyday and run together? only if u want of course."
"well i'd love to but i don't run everyday."
"i didn't expect u to. i do run everyday and have never seen u before. so i figured ur either a new runner or new in town. i must say, ur in excellent shape for someone who doesn'r exercise regularly."
she cud feel the heat rising in her cheeks and guessed she must have gone as red as a tomato! she quickly recovered and said, "well my job requires i keep in shape."
"really? that's interesting. what exactly do u do?"
" i work as a flight attendant."
"wow! must be fun huh? i travel a lot too." they ran back up the path and she decided that she'd go home. they exchanged numbers so she cud fix up to go running with him next friday.
as soon as she reached home, she ran into the bedroom and looked at herself in the mirror to make sure she had been looking presetable enuf. not too bad, she decided. she'd try and make herself look better next friday for sure. she laughed at herself in the mirror and shook her head deciding there probably wudn't be another friday run.

more fiction...
she woke up, with an amazing sense of enthusiasm...she thought she needed to do something other than sitting at home, like on any normal friday...that was her day off....HER day...and she (much as she refused to admit it!)...was necessarily a "people" person.
she needed to be around people to feel energised and full of life. she decided to take a loooong walk to explore her comparatively new surroundings... that's when she saw him...for the first time. it was "infatuation at first sight!" he was the most beautiful thing she'd ever laid eyes on...she was so astounded that she didn't even notice that she was staring at him with her mouth open. then she realised and looked away quickly...she almost giggled at her juvenile reaction. she reminded herself that she was now a woman -- 18 years old, and extremely capable of taking care of herself in what everybody referred to as "the big, bad world."
she continued walking but had this inexplicable urge to take the very same direction that he took. she chided herself (mentally) for thinking foolishly and continued on her chosen path...
she blared the volume on her walkman and kept walking at a brisk pace...she felt good. she hadn't exercised in a long long time and this walk was giving her what she needed most at that point in her life...ENDORPHINS...(the hormone released during excessive workout that makes u temporarily happy!)

guess what guys? i'm back into "CRUSH MODE"!!! i won't be too obvious about the person or his name...but if u mail me, i might tell u "everything" ok? well i kinda developed this new crush on "the mystery guy" (mg for short....) since the 15th...(march 2003 of course!)...he's really sweet and all that. i don't know what exactly i liked...maybe it was those tricky pheromones huh? lol
i love this. everything seems so beautiful in crush mode huh? well the sad moping part shud start somewhere around tomorrow....so this is an official warning that u shud stay away from my blog for a while! (giggle!)
oh by the way, ur going to come across a lot of pieces of fiction like the one i blogged earlier today...i'll try and compose some funny stuff ok? ; )
have fun!

she felt suffocated and so went out onto the verandah to get some fresh air...that's what she told the host, but she actually needed thinking space...
so she took her drink and went out to stand on the deck and look out over the water, so serene and peaceful at that hour...the beautiful moon and all it's kazillion stars reflecting off the velvety smooth surface of the water. it was so romantic. she wished she had more of a life then. something to live for besides her own dreams...but she had chosen not to commit. he had asked her but she felt she was too young and needed to achieve her goals to feel like she'd done something worth living if not anything else.
she closed her eyes, leaned forward out the deck and felt the cool wind blow the curls off her face tickling her cheeks...the whole world didn't exist at that moment...she didn't even hear the door open slightly behind her...
he moved closer to her -- close enuf to hear her breathing yet careful not to touch her...her hair smelt so good...she looked so beautful and innocent with her lips curved slightly upward in pleasure..."hi," he said in his ASV and she was startled out of her momentary trance... " whew! u made me jump out of my skin!" she said in her cute lil accusing tone...then she smiled and said, " what are u doing out here? u shud be taking care of ur guests..."..
(he) "that's exactly what i'm doing...what if i agree to wait?"
she looked at him shocked, " what???"
"well, yes, i thought about it a lot. i understand how u feel. i know how much it means to u...we love each other and since u believe that u cannot marry me now, i'll wait..."
" but, but...u were in a hurry..." (she)
" and i still am, but i don't think i'd be happy with anyone but u...u came into my life like an angel and changed everything i thought was true...i saw that there cud be everlasting love...i know i'll be able to love u for the rest of my life..."
"oh! this can't be happening..."
" what can't be happening? why can't u ever accept anything that's good?"
"cos i don't deserve anything good...and u r too good to be true...oh god! please tell me that it's only a dream..."
" but i do really love u..."....and then he cud say no more for she stopped his words with a kiss....a kiss so sweet and long that he cud not even think anymore...
" i know i can be really stupid sometimes but not stupid enuf to not accept ur offer..."will u still marry me?"
"will u?" (he)
"yes oh yes....with all my heart.....i love u soooo much...."
"i love u too..."
she felt safe in his arms...she knew that everything wud be fine again...he felt her tender presence and knew that everything was goingt o be wonderful...

all u guys in india who read my blog....i miss u guys soooo much.....i don't have any friends here u know. well it wud be unfair to say any friends, i do have a few friends, but none that i can hang out with like i used to back in india...

aisi -- thanx for reading my blog sweetheart -- i think ur blog is amazing, it actually inspires me to write...! lol ... i seriously u shud consider writing professionally...

radhika, u have been my BEST friend as long as i remember...and i'm sure u remember clearly all of the times that i tortured u...(i was always evil!) i'm sorry for having been such a stubborn, thick headed nut! i never did take u for granted though....ok? we have been apart always but still are very close and i hope that remains true for this time too...

mario -- i never shud have broken up with u -- i will regret that for the rest of my life....but i hope u do know that i'll never ever find another guy as caring and understanding as u? i wish u the best in life...

kamal, u r such an amazing friend, i wish i had stayed there long enuf to get to know u personally....

pradeep -- i'll never find anyone that loves me more than u do (wish u'd realise i'm not worth it!)--.anyways thanx for everything...thanx for all ur cards. thanx for keeping in touch and above all, thanx for caring so much...

sahitya sweetie.... u r the closest friend i've ever had...i cud never be more comfortable than i am when i'm with u...u actually make me feel like the best thing that ever was, u inspire me to actually like myself....don't u dare forget about our "dream vacation" ok?

all u guys have taught me something about myself...and i am grateful to each of u....there are many others, but i'm not sure if they read my blog...lol...i know, it's pretty boring right? well it's not everyday that i get so senti...so u might as well enjoy it nefore i turn into my normal sarcastic, selfish self! i love u.

whew! that was such a relief! it really does help to vent....wish i cud do something personally for all those who suffer...
the other day, one of my closest friends gave me a compliment...one that meant more to me than any other before...she said, i have the gift to touch other's lives...well i thought it was an exaggeration...but. it made me feel really good about being myself (for once!)...
i am seriously considering writing letters to people who are sick and suffering...thank god, we have this awesome platform to reach people all the world (reference to the internet)...well is she does really consider me gifted, then i might as well try and see if it actually is true right? lol

here i am...happier than 75% of the earth's population...enough money to survive, enough food to eat and most importantly, with all of my physical organs working just fine. then what is it i'm complaining about? some people just don't deserve the kind of lives they're forced into! it's so unfair! i'm not wishing that i suffer instead of them (i'm too selfish to wish something like that!)...but why even them then? what did he do to deserve this i wonder?
the most misery i deal with on a regular basis is when i develop one of those crazy "crushes" that last at the most for about a month i guess...why inflict physical handicap on poor unsuspecting creatures just when things seem to get a lil better???
mind u, this isn't a prayer for u to take away my only sources of happiness! i'm praying for all those people who suffer for no obvious reasons! all those people who can't do everything they wud like to just cos "something" happened that has taken away the rest of their lives from them. i wish that they get what every good person deserves to have -- unconditional love...a family that cares and above all, hope....hope; that everything will get better soon...hope; that the ones they love most will never suffer what they have been through...hope; that they have a lifetime of happiness to discover ahead of them....hope; that the worst has passed and now it's time for spring...--spring forever....no more cycles where there will be summer, fall and another harsh winter....just spring...where they will never tire of all the good things cos they have been through enuf bad for 10 lifetimes!!!
amen.
please answer this prayer for me...

some more cheesy lines....
glad u liked them! :)
1. it takes me only one drink to get drunk. i don't remember if it's the 9th or 10th one...
2. life is like rush-hour traffic. if your horn's broken, improvise and use your finger.
3. if the shoe fits, find the other one!

once it so happened in a flight that james bond was sitting beside a telugu guy and both were headed towards the US...
telugu guy: may i know your name please?
james bond: bond.....james bond. and u?
telugu guy: sai....venkata sai...
siva venkata sai...
laxminarayana siva venkata sai....
srinivasula laxminarayana venkata sai...
rajasekhara srinivasula laxminarayana venkata sai...
sitaramanjaneyula rajasekhara srinivasula laxminarayana venkata sai...
bulusupalli sitaramanjaneyula rajasekhara srinivasula laxminarayana venkata sai...

bomd faints!!!
since then, when anyone asks bond his name, he simply says "james bond."

my fave pick up lines...

1. it's an angel! honest!...the horns are just there to hold the halo up!
2. everybody has the right to act like an idiot. some people abuse the privilege!
3. if u can't beat ur computer at chess, beat it at kick-boxing!
4. newton was wrong. earth sucks!
5. i'm worried. i dropped a brick on a really large spider and it didn't kill him. now, he has a weapon!
6. if u find urself in a hole, the first thing to do id stop digging...
7. i'm not completely useless, atleast i can set a bad example!
8. if bill gates had a nickel for everytime windows crashed......oh wait. he does!
9. if ur expecting the unexpected, doesn't that make the unexpected expected???
10. life is like a dogsled team. if ur not the lead dog, the scenery never changes...
11. if good things come in small paskages, then more good things can come in large packages!
12. if a law student lies to his teacher about cheating, does he automatically pass?

what do u think?